its not that [simple]

i was going to preface this with some words of wisdom. but honestly, i dont have any. everything has been said. a million times. and nothing changes. and at this point, im exhausted. physically, emotionally, mentally. i need a solution. it isnt here. its never been here. and until i find one, i really cant waste anymore words. so im borrowing someone elses:


allie: you smug bastard. i hate you for saying that.
noah: youre bored. youre bored and you know it. you wouldnt be here if there wasnt something missing.
allie: you arrogant son of a bitch.
noah: would you just stay with me?
allie: stay with you? what for? look at us, were already fighting.
noah: well thats what we do. we fight. you tell me when im being an arrogant son of a bitch and i tell you when youre a pain in the ass. which you are, 99% of the time. im not afraid to hurt your feelings. you have like a two second rebound rate, then youre back doing the next pain in the ass thing.
allie: so what?
noah: so its not gona be easy. its gona be really hard. were gona have to work at this everyday, but i want to do that because i want you. i want all of you, forever, you and me, everyday. will you do something for me please? just picture your life for me? thirty years from now, forty years from now? whats it look like? if its with him, go. go! i lost you once, i think i can do it again. if i thought thats what you really wanted. but dont you take the easy way out.
allie: what easy way. there is no easy way. no matter what i do, somebody gets hurt.
noah: would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? stop thinking about what i want, what he wants, what your parents want. what do you want?
allie: its not that simple. . .