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how come no matter how much time has passed or whats changed, sitting at a local bar with good friends laughing about the past neverrrr gets old? i feel like i talk about my friends alot but theyre such a central part of my life. some days i feel as though i miss them more than id ever miss a boyfriend/husband. its just such a different kind of bond.

i went to college with a girl who pretty much seperated her life into years. she had her home/high school friends who she left there. i mean, left there. never laughed on the phone for hours during all night study sessions. never called to tell the craziest story from the frat party the night before. never started making plans for thanksgiving break in about august. just didnt really feel the need to bring them into her "present." she was satisfied leaving them in the "past" and making new. what?! thats so insane to me. as we went through college, she was one of my good friends. we did the laughing and the crying and the planning and the craziness. we did the long phone calls and the good times. and now we dont. so i guess im in that second chunk. im in her more recent past, but still her past. and thats fine. whatever makes her happy. i still see her occasionally and cherish the times we get together. shes a great friend and im lucky to have had her. shes got her new set new. the new boyfriend and the new work friends. and shes perfectly happy going out to fancy dinners and drinking expensive cocktails talking about grownup stuff.

any maybe im immature. scratch that, sentimental. i enjoy fancy dinners and expensive cocktails just as much as the next girl. i love getting dressed up in my new heels and dancing the night away with all the money i made that week. once in awhile. who in their real life does that stuff everyday? dont you need to throw on sweatpants and watch monday night football with your best friends (and about a dozen retired townies)? dont you need to drink beer from a can and play childrens rainy day games at the bar? [fyi: if youve never played 20questions about people circa your high school years, you must try it. preferably somewhere in public. guarantee you or one of your friends will spit their drink clear across the bar at some point in the game. "have you ever slept with him?" "no." "are you sure?" "yes you bitch im counting that as two questions." hahahaa] i think where youre from defines alot of who you are. and where im from has never been about money and upscale things. its been about love and laughter and doing things that make you smile. and thats exactly what i did last night.

pretty sure i havent laughed that hard in awhile. and im positively sure that last night is what will keep me smiling until the next time.