whisper words of wisdom

and when the broken hearted people

living in the world agree.

there will be an answer, let it be.

for though they may be parted,

there is still a chance that they will see.

there will be an answer, let it be.

sometimes you just have to let it be. people come into your life. and they leave. things happen that you couldnt have ever predicted. and there are moments you saw coming from a mile away. sadness and loss hit you hard. but your heart feels as though it may burst with love and pure joy. you lose the people you love. but gain new loves. you win. and you lose. you get the chance to do what you love. but you miss out on opportunities. you rush through life. and you live certain moments as if they are an eternity. life is full of so many ups and downs. and so much of that truly is out of your hands. as the resident control freak around here, letting go of that comfort is not something im used to doing. or something i like to do, for that matter. but i think its about time.

lately, i have started to let go. to just let things be whatever they are. and its weirdly working. dont get me wrong, im not convinced. you wont catch me spinning around barefoot in the fields, enjoying the musical stylings of jimi hendrix while i drink wheat grass shakes. not on your life. im still the very tightly wound young woman you know (and love, right?!). but ive been trying to distinguish that which i can change and that which will forever be out of my control. and slowly but surely, i am taking the deep breath out to let some things go. never thought id hear myself say that.

my biggest struggle is with my heart. my head has a very clear picture of what is feasible and whats just flat out ridiculous. but there seems to be a disconnect. they just arent agreeing with one another. and being the hopeless romantic that i [still] am after all thats changed in my life, i tend to lean more towards the heart end of things. ive never been very good at hiding my feelings. or making them go away. which would explain my current predicament. so for now, im trying to let it be. whatever that means. while i feel there is no letting this situation be, im willing to try. what im not willing to do, is put my life on hold for something i still cant rely on. and until im actually confident with this, ill be replaying the words over and over again in my head. it has to work eventually, right?